020Escape…

posted by Kulit on March 14th, 2006

My foot has taken a lot of beating, now more recent, a sprain. I have the left foot bandaged and I've walked awkwardly for the last 4 days. My butt took quite a beating as well. See, I fell down the stairs while uh…sweeping and I must have lost my footing somewhere and landed on my arse with my ankle twisted.

I'm not really hardened to physical pain, I faint at the sight of blood and this is why I didn't do gym people. But if I can use my pain to get in a few more extra hours with my gf. Then I'd gladly exploit it for all its worth.

Yesterday in the age of old tradition of playing hooky, we managed to do everything we need to do together. I had my teeth cleaned for free! Well not really, but I didn't put out cash so that's like…cool. And I've never had a female dentist before so that was neat.

My dentist, has been my dentist since I was a kid and basically he talks to my mom about my teeth erm… issues. He would go, "you're daughter needs to have her fillings fixed." And I'm sitting next to him. I look at him and look to my mom questioningly as if saying "am I getting fillings?" since I can't actually say it, he has this shiny metallic mirror thingy on my mouth. And she would nod to both of us. Reminds me of what happens in the mafia where my mom calls the shots.

This how it was done. How it went on up until my mom left. And since then I've only gone to the dentist once. And it was weird. He kept looking at my chart, and kept asking about relatives I've never met. That had me really paranoid that he got me confused with someone else, that and the fact that he keeps looking at my chart. Shouldn't he know my teeth by now?

So I'm really glad to be moving on. This feels right, feels adultly.

I guess I won't be getting lollipops anymore. Anyway, getting back to the topic. We've spent the weekend together. It was fantastic. I spent most of the day in bed hehe. Mostly because of my injury but it was great nonetheless. Couldn't make kulit though which sucked but when she wraps her arms and legs around me it was like better than any physical therapy one could ever get.

Yesterday was a bit of an extension of that, just being able to spend more time together. Even if it was just to take a siesta after roaming the mall. Been getting some TLC and it feels awesome but I really can't wait to get back on my feet, literally. But I was glad that somebody cared that my bandage was wrapped tightly enough or if I'm applying too much pressure on my back. When the very people that live with me and saw me tumbling down the stairs couldn't care less, and acted so nonchalant that it was cruel. You know? It made me feel small and worthless.

These couple of days, it showed me how much being with her could be an escape but at the same time, a couple of hours with her and I'm all set for the day. Like I could take whatever life throws at me. She has this effortless way of managing chaos and setting a brighter perspective. When I've only been this one huge mess. I couldn't anymore list what she's brought in my life. I can only be humbled, feel blessed and amazed by it all, smile silently and thank whose ever out there for not forgetting me.~k