126why i love christmas
posted by Kulit on December 29th, 2006
Christmas went by a little fast for my liking. I guess it’s different this year with my mom and sister in the States. Kind of felt a little pathetic that we had take-out food for Noche Buena, but then again we didn’t have any patience to cook real food at that time. Although I have to say there was an abundance of sweets. Tiramisu, Fruit Salad, Chocolate Mousse, Ube and Leche Flan, I think we kind of went crazy with the sweets but that’s kind of our thing. There’s still a part of me that still craves Chocolate pudding.
I used to love this time of year, I love seeing the decorations even when Folks get a little crazy with it. And I especially love watching Christmas themed movies, ‘It’s a wonderful Life’ being one of my all time faves.
I remember seeing ‘A Christmas Story’ with my little sister, who would furiously fight for the TV remote and hated TNT. Remember how TNT shared a channel with Cartoon Network? Well, she hated that. And somehow I convinced her to watch this endearing film. And she loved it.
It’s never been my attitude to look for presents, especially because I remember a time when we couldn’t afford to give any. But I received a few good presents this year *huggles her sneakers* and it was really great to finally give a few presents of my own, from my own earnings. That felt really good.
Having my mom and my sister away it’s left me feeling misplaced and kind of changed the whole meaning of Christmas when I used to believe that it is about the family being together. Regardless of the shortage of money and presents I always look forward to seeing my mom busily at the kitchen, my sister Sam helping her, my little sister and I debating what movie to watch and my dad figuring how to light a 6 year old Christmas tree.
It’s kind of tiring to sound sad and sentimental but that was Christmas for me and I loved it. And I hope to have it back.
We had a bit of a scare with my mom having a mild stroke, I kind of felt helpless being so far away and not being able to do anything except relay news of her health I get through sms. I can’t imagine what she must be going through, and my sister only 14, being her only aid.
It’s hard, it’s still hard on all of us and perhaps I would not get the same feeling of excitement whenever Christmas time comes around for a long time.
I still hold a huge importance for family in my life, and I hope that someday if I am blessed to make my own family that they would feel that warm feeling one would get around this time and a fondness for what it represents.